A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess

Genre: Classic Dystopian Thriller
Rating: 5 Soda Caps

I actually have a shirt for this one! I love the psychological depth of this book with its unique language, realistic depiction of Alex, and the almost comical way the government and it's psychologist puppets step in. The over all theme is a particular favorite of mine, being somewhere along the lines of "it's better to be a monster than to not be yourself" but with a touch of "there's no rest for the wicked".

Nadsat for some reason is one of my favorite languages. There's this humor behind almost every slang word that makes my day. A language that highlights select words like friends, mouth, face, sex, violence, etc... The repetition puts emphasis on the intricacy of the connection between the boys and the fact that it's not a full language (therfore just slang) gives it that gang quality. If Alex was actually as big as Jesus like he feels, maybe it could be a full language. Yet, alas, his power is all in his head.

That ego is another part that drew me in. Alex truly believes that he's king amongst his "drugess" like a hipster would, thinking he's leagues more intelligent and cultured them. He sees himself above them and he sees himself above the law too, leaving him as the definition of a narcissistic sociopath. Still, Alex is portrayed as a victim to a corrupt system.

The totalitarianism of the mental institution features behavioral conditioning like a small scale Brave New World. Though it is exaggerated it highlights the very real fact that our reformation institutions are flawed, as is our government. It doesn't take a genius to see that the American (and many others) government has an obscene amount of corruption.

Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton

Genre: Science Fiction
Rating: 4 Soda Caps

I'm not sure where to start with this book. I decided to read it for an obvious reason -- it's a classic. I must admit though, I was not dissatisfied. Malcom's Theory was one of my favorite bits of the book. I rather enjoyed the speculation of the unknown impending doom. "If something can go wrong. It will." attitude is also a sinful pleasure of mine. That dark, sarcastic, slightly sadistic nature makes the edges of my smile curl until it's more crooked than a crook.

The only reasons this book doesn't get a 5 star rating is because  (1) Timmy's sister is almost unbearably obnoxious and (2) Crichton doesn't go into detail about the generation gap though he has every opportunity to do so. The fact that my generation will know computers better than his, and the next will be born with an I pad in their hands is the kind of topic one shouldn't pass up. Malcom might have even had some negative feedback to fuel the fire. Alas, that's only a pipe dream for another dimension I suppose.

I was quite fond of all the foreshadowing and the archetypes displayed in this novel. Grant being the protector and Timmy being the hero, they were most definitely my favorites. Ellie is a close third for being a strong minded, work oriented woman. Hammond was by far my least favorite. His Trump-like mentality was cringe worthy. His incessant need to rake in dough and inspire violence in children made my skin crawl.

All in all, I haven't read a book this thought provoking since A Clockwork Orange. I'm hoping to read the 2nd book by June but I can't promise anything. I'm waiting for a friend to finish it before I can borrow it.

Tweak by Nic Sheff

Genre: Young Adult, Drug Abuse
Rating: 4 Soda Caps

     I'm not sure what's so special about Nic Sheff. Maybe it's the uncomfortable honesty of his life that's just repulsive enough to make people care but not make them turn away. There's this innocence to him despite his life choices. He always seems to run from anything that's good for him and levitate towards what's quite obviously no good for him. In this way, the ending is a bit expected.

     The word choice and imagery in Tweak are not all that impressive, except when Nic talks about Zelda or drugs. Besides that and occasionally when he's biking or when the idea of a family taunts him, his writing starts sounding a bit like Holden Caulfield's Catcher in the Rye because nothing really seems to strike his fancy. Even still, he gets bored easily. There's something about being an addict and trying to build your life again that makes you want to just be an addict instead -- the daunting day-to-day and building of trust. I like how Nic portrays this but he doesn't really get into it, in my opinion. He more so focuses on the "getting better" part even though that clearly wasn't what he was thinking about. There's a lot of shaming -- mostly self shaming -- and insecurities or external disappointment that goes into being an addict. Nic just barely scratches the hidden side of an iceberg on that topic.

     Towards the end, there's a lot missing from the story. Chunks of time lapse between entries. I would've liked to have known what happened in these chunks of time but i suppose that's how Nic portrays the chunks of time missing in an addicts life. One day you're sleeping in a crack house; the next day you're sleeping in a whore house.... Etc... There's this introspective quality that Nic seems to lack though. Part of me is torn reading about his life and how foolish he is, while part of me wishes he'd grow the heck up (something i don't entirely believe he's done due to his word choice).

     Tweak has a counterpart written from the perspective of Nic's dad. I look forward to reading his side of things. If he has half the dynamic or enigmatic nature that Nic has, it should be just as compelling as Tweak. Nic also has another book called We All Fall Down. I might add that to my To Be Read list as well depending on how i feel after his dad's book, Beautiful Boy.

Words Without Walls: Writers on Addiction, Violence, and Incarceration by Sheryl St. Germain and Sarah Shotland

Genre: Nonfiction/ Fiction/ Drama Compilation
Rating: 5 Soda Caps

   "Addiction, violence, and incarceration" isn't an accurate a big enough umbrella for the array of topics covered in this series of anecdotes. From real war stories to inner war excerpts, the Words Without Walls outreach program delves into some subjects that cannot thoroughly be described by my depiction only. The rawness of these writings bores into your bones fold after fold as you press-on with each account of adversity or long-lived silence of turpitude.

     Each passage has its own set of slang and jargon from a lifetime of intertwined, diverging cultures. Drug users/abusers will know a million ways to say what fix theyre trying to score, a secret code they have to muddle under their breath in alleyways to recieve their self destruction. Others hide for a significant portion of their life. Their coveted experiences are shocking to more than just religious grandmothers.

     In all honesty, some pages left me with a feeling of disgust and concern. It's difficult to read "Words Without Walls" without feeling like someone stomped on your heart. I don't think I could read this if I had children. I worry about what the next generation is coming into. At the same time, I'm relieved that social norms on gender and sexuality are seemingly dissolving one day at a time. For the most part, the next generation is allowed to disclose who they truly are without perturbation. In the small town where I grew up, some of the most indestructible humans I know are cross-dressers, pansexuals, androgynous, or transgender. Equally so, there are straight, heterosexual supporters that leave me in awe with the way they aid those who differ from conformities of the previous generations.

     The most insufferable issues for me were suicide, eating disorders, consensual/nonconsensual rape, abuse, and alcohol abuse. For someone who has seen these, dealt with these, and pushed them away, it is grueling to turn the other cheek to adversaries and enablers. As for addiction, I yearn to help all that forfeit their life over to an uncontrollable life, giving into whatever gets them by. There is numbing and euphoria on the other side, sure, but it's never enough when you give in to self destructive thoughts.

     "Words Without Walls" is all about new beginnings. It's about the past, where it
led to, and what you chose to do about it. Take it with a grain of salt, but leave it knowing what you can have in the future if you hold your head up. It is not fear, but the knowing from another's experience that makes us stronger. When I read this book. I thought of all the stories my mother told me as a kid -- ones to make me cautious about my surroundings -- and how they made me who I am today. Learning vicariously through my mother's affairs has prepared me for trials I couldn't have even fathomed. If you should read this book, I hope you can keep a similar sensitivity in mind and gain fortitude from its prose.